Both long and short at same time?

I have a really small (1.5%) position in sqqq in my ROTH.

I'm also 30% in cash.

It seems to screw with my mind though being both long and short it seems.

Does anyone else feel like this holding long and short positions?

I mean part of me is looking for sales in my favorite stocks (like MSFT GOOGL NVDA for example) and another part is wondering if instead I should add to my short QQQ position?

It's like saying “ok I think this is still going down….but if it gets low enough I'm gonna now go long”

I mean that's how I feel holding cash anyways, but now part of my “cash” is in SQQQ making a little in the way down.

Does this make sense?